Will God judge me for hating my father?

My father was both verbally and physically abusive. He put my mother and siblings through a lot. I strongly dislike him and feel absolutely no emotion towards him. I want to be born again and serve the Lord but i feel like this hate i have for my father will never go away and calling myself a Christian while hating someone would be a bit contradicting and hypocritical.. How could I call myself a Christian when I despise my own father?